It's fun to actually see things start to come together, but at other times, you really feel like a paranoid stalker of your own e-mail inbox. I still have no idea what the future holds, but a million thanks is due to several friends who miraculously appear at unexpected moments. You know who you are.
No dream is too far-fetched. If you want to build castles in the air, I think you should. Seriously.
I decided to step out and try for the biggest project in my life. Here is the clue. WOO SO FUN.
To those who somehow read this, I afraid to say that I have been a very bad friend.
When you don't meet friends conveniently anymore, you sometimes feel weirded by having to take the initiative. It is naturally so much easier to be avoidant and fearful of the encounters you might have a chance of having. Not to mention the various tiny things you try to hide from everyone from fear of being ridiculed, misunderstood or worse, be seen in a strange new light. Somehow you don't even understand yourself, or possibly haven't even chosen a side because, darn, staying on the middle fence is so comfortable.
Introversion suits me, but it will only be time before I hit the bed of thorns and shatter.
I guess I really want to say, I do not mean it. Intentions are but a fleeting reality from true actions.
