I found another opportunity, but who knows what will happen. Fingers crossed.
VERY AGITATED NOW. The way a small kid plays a tantrum at a shopping mall. And for good reason too.
It is just a matter of time before I start getting excessively aggressive especially when people give me the cold shoulder...
No one to turn to
No one to share dreams with
No one to be completely open with
No one to cry on
No one to laugh with
No one to completely trust
No one to walk with
No one to push on
No one to hang on to
You are all I need, but is that all there is
(Bath Cry Sleep)
It's fun to actually see things start to come together, but at other times, you really feel like a paranoid stalker of your own e-mail inbox. I still have no idea what the future holds, but a million thanks is due to several friends who miraculously appear at unexpected moments. You know who you are.
No dream is too far-fetched. If you want to build castles in the air, I think you should. Seriously.
I decided to step out and try for the biggest project in my life. Here is the clue. WOO SO FUN.
To those who somehow read this, I afraid to say that I have been a very bad friend.
When you don't meet friends conveniently anymore, you sometimes feel weirded by having to take the initiative. It is naturally so much easier to be avoidant and fearful of the encounters you might have a chance of having. Not to mention the various tiny things you try to hide from everyone from fear of being ridiculed, misunderstood or worse, be seen in a strange new light. Somehow you don't even understand yourself, or possibly haven't even chosen a side because, darn, staying on the middle fence is so comfortable.
Introversion suits me, but it will only be time before I hit the bed of thorns and shatter.
I guess I really want to say, I do not mean it. Intentions are but a fleeting reality from true actions.
Reality. Fantasy. An idealist is torn between both.
Help needed.
I likened my failed tiramisu similar to the time I've mistaken salt for sugar.
Will update a longer post when I get the pictures from the other memory card. I hate it when things are updated in non-chronology.
So now, you can only satisfy yourself with this:
Beautiful people.
Beautiful-er people.
You Are a Vanilla Cupcake |
 You are very sweet and mellow. You are easy going and easy to like. You are drawn to those stronger personalities. You get along with powerful people. You are like a cupcake because you appeal to almost every type of person. You are friendly and accepting. You bring out other people's best qualities. |
Even if I am a serial stealer, I don't want to do anything that concerns my belly buttons. Period.
Premise 1: I tun 22 today.
Premise 2: I am sick.
Conclusion: BAHUMBUG. Getting well takes priority.
You Are Eggs |
 Traditional and totally grown up, you truly believe that breakfast is the most important meal of the day. You don't skimp on nutrition or quality. You're likely to take the time to make yourself a decent meal each morning. You're a great cook, even if you aren't a showy one. You can make a feast out of simple ingredients. The food you eat may be basic, but you prefer to think of it as classic. |
WOOT WOOT. Notice that I didn't call you BRADA.
1. Genting '08. I seem to have the best batch of photos from there...
2. Don't know why Photobucket twists my photos in thumbnails. Sucks.
I still have all the videos, but they're probably too big to be uploaded...
EDIT 1:
Here are some huge-dildo-looking-inflatable-baseball-bat photos, not my words, mind you.
Brian Whammos Mae.
Sam Saves.
Belle's Face? Bliss.
John emo while the other two fights.
Barbariajenna.
It really almost hit the camera.
Comparison.
The videos are on average 450 MB. I'll spare you the shame and give them to you personally. That's it for this update! Happy birthday again!
P.S.: All these done with night activities withdrawal syndrome. The healthy ones, that is.
It's not my fault for liking short hair when it really makes me look thinner more attractive healthier.
Before.
After.
I spent the whole day cam-whoring to realize than it is darn difficult. Bah-humbug.
Read the title and feast on the pictures.
Sorry for the harsh backlighting and poor composition. I was definitely in the wrong seat. All pictures can be accessed in their full versions.
Serving Tea
Happy Mae
Teluk Pulai Klang Bak Kut Teh
Big
Sleeping Brothers
Verdict: 4 stars out of 5, I wouldn't call it the best, but it is definitely more than just safe.
You Are the Castle |
 You are a bit of a homebody and even somewhat of a loner. You function best when you're all by yourself. Other people see you as mysterious and even a little scary. They don't understand how deep and complicated you are. You have many layers to your personality, and there is always a surprise waiting around the corner with you. You aren't as scary as you seem, but you are intense. You require people to confront things about themselves that they rather not know. |
Dr. Anasu: How many of you have friends which are racially homogenous?
Me: Hey! That's not fair! It's not like we would come to University on the very first day and point and scream, "Hey! I want that Indian over there!"
Talk about entertainment.
Uncle Sam = Connector
Me = Maven
Schmae = Sales(wo)men
Yea, it is draining my life.
However, it produced a 12.07 minutes documentary of personal orgasmic bliss.
Can't wait to see others, and will load links to the YouTube version of it. Till then.
I have never spent so much emotion in writing an article as I had today.
At the same time, I secretly shot people without shooting them. Being diplomatic is not all that easy.
Hoping for a new fresh start.
3. Slipping
This happens when you wipe the floor so clean that you slip over the polished surfaces like tofu over a frozen lake. And you happen to land on your knees with a resounding thud. Not all that assuring I tell you.
2. Grit
This happens to be too big to be dust, too small to be debris, and too sticky to be vacuum-able, forcing you to wash the cloth clean again each time you cover about half a meter square.
1. Hair
Long, short, thin, thick: it doesn't matter. They stick so stubbornly to the floor and not your cloth, and by the time you pick up about 2 or 3, the cloth will start rejecting additional hairs and flattening the rest against the floor. Nightmare. No wonder so many horror movies are focused on hair...
P.S.: Too lazy to edit the font from this post onwards. Barely noticeable, but you'll understand.
Taking a break from my Tribute runs.
I cannot believe it: I gained ~10 kg in ~3 years! And I actually feel think know that I am more physically active now compared to then. I strongly believe that all that gain isn't muscle.
So this is what I did:
Can you see your house in there?
It was supposed to be a random direction run without a fixed path (I've done this before, twice reported in my old blog, but this is the longest). I tried to pass as many friends' houses on the way though. I pancit-ed about a million times in the process, and about halfway I was somewhat delirious. But I'm proud of myself.
Anyone care to join?
EDIT: Oh, and when I got back, HUC called me and said I have a cheque waiting for me next month. Birthday presents are really on the dot.
It is really hard to find photos in my archive suitable for drawing. So, here is the lucky one:
You look very innocent in this picture.
Again, I was using single pen technique and attempting to add more texture to the hair. This only took me over an hour despite wanting to be a little more intricate:
Uni Pin Fine Line 0.1. I think Wen's tribute is more Cina then you.
Send me your high resolution photos!
I was planning to use a frontal shot of a male because I was tired of shading and adding texture to so much hair:
When are you gonna update your blog?
Your hair took me more than half an hour to do and another half to DRY. I should be charged per hour:
Only used Pilot G1-Grip 0.5, so it looks a little rougher than the previous two.
There. You get to look like a Cina-man.
I was so tempted to do another one, so here is lucky number 2:
Woot.
A different approach from the previous; it turned out like this:
Pilot G-Tec-C4 for skin, Uni Pin Fine Line 0.1 for hair and Pilot G1-Grip 0.5 for clothing.
Finished this at 1.45 am. Wow. And I must say: WHY DO ALL OF YOU HAVE SO MUCH HAIR!!!
This is my first part in the series of tribute to friends. Click the pictures to view the larger versions in my Photobucket gallery.
This person wanted photos from me since forever, so here you go:
Wah, so yeng.
In addition, to pay you back for all the waiting, you get a bonus:
Thanks to my Uni Pin Fine Line 0.1, Pilot G1-Grip 0.5 and Pilot G-Tec-C4. 1.5 hours of sheer creative bloom.
I feel proud of myself.
I did your homework for you: his name is Adrian Nathan Aakre. I agreee with Ping that he brings the Pedo out in you. You know who you are.
To those who are music illiterate, you have about 1 hour left to celebrate Vivaldi's 332nd birthday, in Malaysia that is.
I don't care what you say, I'm proud of it.
Read the title.
1. Beauty is Overrated
Everyone is beautiful these days. Seriously. With the advent of plastic surgery, laser treatments and other dermological and fitness regimes, anyone can get closer to what I would call "niche-selected-crass-commercialized-beauty", a type of beauty set by fashion and style critics. Even without dough, people can resort to traditional methods which are sometimes far superior than their modern counterparts. Culture seems to become assimilated with commercial beauty, with parents become more concerned with their child's physical growth and maintenance. People expect Korea to be one of the nations with the most plastic surgery operations by Switzerland beat them easily - Swiss (214.621 people for every 100,000) vs Koreans (19.654 people for every 100, 000). The truth is this, there are just too many beautiful people on this planet (guys included) to the extent that beauty almost represents normality.
Beauty = Survival of the Fittest/Sexual Selection
became
Beauty = Normal
In fact, because beauty is now a normality, the new beautiful should be
Beauty = Uniqueness
Within the past 10 years, many advocates have been pushing hard to promote inner beauty and subjectivity, the most popular being Campaign For Real Beauty. In reality, they actually help create an environment where individuals with unique features stand out even more than they already are. Similarly, the new ugly has now transformed to averageness. People with the most average facial features are scientifically the most easily forgotten. It's even better to be ugly now than average looking, because even though people might not like you for your looks, you will be memorable to some extent as long as you are not TOO ugly (based on "niche-selected-crass-commercialized-beauty" or "evolved-subjective-individualism". Unfortunately, the old beauty is still an important variable to determine success of copulating and having a baby, not to mention the ability for the children to grow up without being teased about having an ugly mother.
The next time you look in the mirror and you do not like certain features on yourself, pat yourself on the back, for you have passed the uniqueness test!
OMG, I think I just contradicted myself.
2. Ideal Governments
If you haven't read schmae's blog yet, I highly recommend the post on E.P.I.C. UNITY. I really applaud their effort for making changes on the microsystems level, but they really need almost the entire nation to be in it to change the whole government arena.
I just hate how democracy is misused. To be fair, no countries practice democracy, but most utilize subforms of it such as parliamentary democracy, constitutionary democracy and so on. The truth is:
Just because people elect their leaders, it doesn't mean they have 100% faith in everything the leaders do. It just means that they were preferable to the opposition.
Preferable? With just that factor, leaders of yesterday, today and tomorrow are led by the illusion of supremacy. I'm not saying that our leaders should be perfect, I'm just saying that democracy can't work this way, ideally. In fact, voting for one leader out of many isn't solving the problem; it will just naturally cause segregation in the nation.
Nations won't change in a day, or probably not even in the next 50 years. However, we should start being aware of the issues surrounding our nation and be a person who votes for principles and ideas and actual work, not just for individuals and parties.
BAHUMBUG.
To those who read manga. If you haven't read 'Liar Game' yet, read it here:
Many of the games depicted in the manga are intriguing: 17-Cards Poker, Minority, Contraband, Statutory Roullete and Pandemic.
We should have a game session soon. Mae, you bought Monopoly Deal yet?
The past few days have been quite filled up, at least for my standards. In fact I've been getting so much exercise that I cannot but say that I should've lost some weight. One thing I have to post about is about a new card game I discovered and taught friends on the 25th, named Shwimmen. It was one of the first time they actually played a game I taught, so it should be quite significant. To those who have played then, I'm sorry to say that my rules got a little mixed up, so I'm posting this up for your clarification.
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Shwimmen (German, literally 'swimming')
Similar to 31 or Scat in other countries.
Originally conceived by Christian Moeller, adapted for gamble play.
Works optimally for 4 players, but playable from 2-8.
Uses a 31 card deck (7-10, J, Q, K, A)
Cards has face values of as such: 7-10 (face value), 10-K (10), A (11)
Opening
1. The dealer deals three cards starting from the dealer's left continuing in a clockwise direction plus an extra hand for the centre of the table.
2. The dealer chooses whether he (/she) would like to keep his (her) hand or trade it from the one in the centre before seeing the cards. Once the trade is done, there is no reverting back.
3. The cards that the dealer does not want is opened in the centre.
Play
1. Everyone starts with three lives represented by three chips. The denomination of each chip is determined before the game starts.
2. The dealer's left starts first. During a turn, a player may either:
-----i. Trade any card with another on the table
-----ii. Pass
-----iii. Knock (explained later)
3. If at any moment you have a special hand (due to a initial deal or after a trade, you MUST expose it and the round ends without anyone else having a turn.
-----i. Feuer (literally 'fire') - Three As of any type is worth 32 points.
-----ii. Schnauz (literally, '31') - One A and another two 10-point cards all of the same suit is worth 31 points.
4. If everyone passes in succession, the three cards in the middle is replaced with a new three.
5. If at any time a player decides that his hand is stronger than the rest, he may 'knock', which will give every other player one more turn before the round ends.
Scoring
1. When the round ends, everyone's hand is exposed. The score for a hand is done by adding up the values of the cards with the same suit. For example: 
7, 9, 
K would count 16 points (for the two hearts); 
8, 
9, J would count 10 (for the jack of spades).
7, 9, K would count 16 points (for the two hearts); 8, 9, J would count 10 (for the jack of spades).2. Any other three-of-a-kind other than A scores 30.5 points. So, A, A, A (32) beats A, K,J (31) which beats 9, 9, 9 (30.5) which beats K, Q, J (30).
A, A, A (32) beats A, K,J (31) which beats 9, 9, 9 (30.5) which beats K, Q, J (30).3. In the case of a tie for triples, the highest rank wins over; A (high), K, Q, J, 10, 9, 8, 7 (low). In the rare case of ties of combinations, the highest suit wins over; Clubs (high), Spades, Hearts, Diamonds (low).
4. The lowest scoring individual(s) adds one of his life (chip) to the pot. If the game ends with a Feuer, all other players add one life to the pot.
5. The game will continue with a new round until someone loses all his lives. The person is considered to be shwimmen (literally, 'swimming'). If a person who is shwimmen loses another round, all lives in the pot goes to the person with the most lives. If tied, the pot is split evenly.
6. The game ends and a new one can be started with everyone having 3 lives again.
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Overall, this game is quite challenging and strategic with everyone focusing on NOT LOSING their lives, rather than winning everyone's lives.
I hope you will enjoy this game!
P.S.: I just met Vincent and he said his friend had an opening for a fresh graduate interested in writing and he said I would be fit for the job. It is an NGO writing position with a 'quite good' tax-free salary in Cyberjaya. Should I take it? Comment!
